Luncheon Meet~

Guess from our outfits and poses, what this yr's theme was? =D

And yes, it's another of my lucky years. Yet another lucky draw prize i brought home ^_^ i love DnDs

only regret is that we reached kinda late with that last bus, and i had so little time to take pictures with friends. :( when's the next DnD coming? we should do this every month instead of the beer parties. XD

If only things would be as smooth for me too. But things just don't seem to go right any time at all. Not this, not that, not anything. People leading perfect lives should just stay away from me. Don't want to talk to you.. let me wallow in disappointments.. for only i live in a real world where things aren't perfect.

Finally got a chance to return. Fell in love with Henderson's waves since the first time i visited with the YA peeps. waited very long, til i went back again today!!! finally!! ^_^

jump shot successful at first try!

no more fun :(

Sigh. And I thought that conference would be even more fun this year. But i probably have to travel alone. So tempted not to go. But no i wouldn't let it stop me! no more holidaying.. and I'll have to find my way myself to the conference location.. no fears! Go Go Go! :(

i could have avoided the 4 yr suffer..

but there was noone to advice me for that. everyone around me was just as naive, simplistic and lacked the foresight. all had adviced me to do what i thought was best too. had foregone the opportunity to really enjoy the course in university. if only i had followed my heart.. maybe i'd be in a better position now. who said the path i took was the most straight forward one? eventually, i realized, it was wrong. time and again, i try and convince myself that i do have some advantages over others who chose the other path. but i seem to be deluding myself. i could have taken what i wanted more, and end up even better off now... now it's hard to turn back.. how? quit and be a stay home mum. :(

good horses eat the green grass everywhere!!

Just before she left, she told me.. good horses don't eat grass behind. i.e. look ahead, never turn back. But i am really hoping that she doesn't live it up. i am looking forward to the day she returns. i hope she decides to do so. i miss her so much.. so much unhappiness around since she left. directly or indirectly...

i miss the old days. not just her, but so many things accumulated. i gave up lunch time so as to complete more stuff in a given time frame. i gave up chilling out over tea so that i could do more. i stopped doing anything that would impede my progress. i stopped initiating and organizing FSC gatherings and outings. is it really too much i gave up? even my health has taken 2nd place.. it's time to rethink my priorities. i'm not going to give up my passion, but maybe i shouldn't neglect everything else so much. there has to be a balance!

if all goes as planned,

it'd be so wonderful! an exciting 2 years ahead await me. So much happening during this transition period. Uncertain, scary, yet exhilarating. I like to plan ahead, so there's alot to look forward to. So glad I am not the only one looking ahead! ^_^ so many choices, so many possibilities. nothing can be confirmed, unfortunately, but it'd be great if things go smoothly and we get what we want. The first major decision factor is very very soon. This time, i don't play a part in the determination of future paths. But, how I fare at work the next few months would be crucial. May it be the best year in the lab!

Lost.

No directions as to where to go next. It's not time yet, but most people generally know where they want to go, so they have the luxury of time to search for it. But, i don't even have a direction, how to search? too bad i am interested in too many things.. can't find a focal point to narrow down to. haiz. no direction, no focus, no future. Someone please enlighten me!!! :(

blow wind blow!

massive rearrangement of seatings. It's gonna be messy, but exciting! coz we're gonna sit together!! ^_^ not next to each other, coz it'd be distracting. but, not too far either. just a turn away. lalala. i dunno how long we can enjoy this luxury, but i'm excited nonetheless. :)

roadtrips?

It's such a wonderful thought. to be able to go back to having regular roadtrips again. I really miss those times. weekend roadtrips. exploring the place. having fun. more than a year back, when i visited yingying and eujin in UK, i saw how fun it was, to spend time together, and having the luxury of going for roadtrips as and when they felt like it. I really envied the life they led.

It may be more than a year before i graduate, but, i like to plan things in advance. I had long forgotten that I am given the option to go back overseas. away from home. be independent again. now that I am reminded of it, i am tempted. really tempted. in fact, deep down, i know i really want it. only the uncertainty of it all drags me back. staying in singapore is always the safest option. i've always chosen the safest path, forcing myself thru life sciences even though i knew i wouldn't like it. but being safe is simple. and no worries. also, will we be able to work it out beautifully?

Lots of thoughts, but no answers. so troubled by it all. and the first song we sang today, struck me right in the centre of my heart.

"...There are things about tomorrow
That I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand..."

where's my sabbath?

working every single day of the week. so tired. this is bad. God gave us the Sabbath, so that we may rest. not only do I not have a fun weekend, i have to come back to the lab everyday this week. Full day summore. stupid cells that need care every 24hours. I'm going to kill them on friday. no more to do with them for some time. and no more stupid presentations. i need my weekend. i need my rest. next week would be much better... can't wait to meet the TH peeps. :)

Giant vs Dwarfs

My mum commented tt TH's shoes very small. Until, i placed my shoe next to his. and hers too. Then... the truth was revealed. Giants vs dwarfs. hahahaha (and yes, all adidas. adidas rocks!!!)


And my mum so happened to buy eggs today. see how they look like?? Same same! Big giant dark eggs, sitting next to tiny white eggs. so cute. hehe

issit the new year already?

it doesn't feel like it. not much of a long weekend for me, it seems. going back to the lab everyday, and more importantly, very caught up with preparation for a big event. oh gosh. such a fortunate boy, birthday always coupled with new year's day, so got super long weekend. so bohua.. i need to plan whole weekend. but i'm glad we had a really enjoyable time. and so happy the cake was yummy :)

Have a blessed year ahead dude. and get your phD by 30! hehe

and you made such a looooooooooooooooong wish. curiosity makes me wonder what you were wishing for. such a long list. hehe

my brother is 20!!!

i can still remember the time i joined the '2' gang. now it's my brother's turn! how time flies. and it was a really happy occasion with the family. a nice close to the year 2009 ^_^

My Yearly Review

New Year Resolutions 2009

1. To read more and grow more spiritually
2. To serve well in SS as I co-teach with Rose, and to be a good CGL as I lead the group this year. Really hope that footprints would grow as one in the Lord this year.
3. To keep up the rate of spending time with family and friends, maybe with a better temper
4. To read up more in the field and keep up the work, without losing the steam. Hopefully a paper would come up soon! ^_^
5. To successfully overcome the inertia and pick up a couple of skills outside of labwork.

Did I do it?

1. Read a really good book called "Divine Mentors". Was at SKS when i overheard someone recommend the book to his friend, and i just bought it. No regrets!! That aside, that was the only book i read this year. The rest of them, are all not beyond chapter 1. >.<
2. think i did a decent job at SS this year. not only did i teach the sec2s, i also substituted other teachers many times so i got to experience teaching other levels too. tiring but fun! ^_^ As for being a CGL, the year started of great, with a spike in attendance. but somewhere along the way, we went back to 'our old ways' and i guess i failed in keeping everyone together. was told by some older people in church that this is normal for a cg going thru these phases, but i still don't like it. it's time for a revamp. I hope the next cgl would be well equipped to do a much better job! and it's time for me to retire after 3 yrs of service. probably another 17 yrs before it's my turn again! hahaha
3. really me up with loads of friends, and made many new friends too, especially earlier in the yr. quite pleased with myself. hahah
4. still no paper, but i think i made decent progress. except for the IP. bleah. and i did pass my qualifying exams!!! i'm now a full fledged phD student (who is still not getting paid)! lalalallaa~
5. couple of skills, i did pick up. got my advanced diving license, and picked up tap dancing and lindy hop too!

I think this is one of the best years where i accomplised a majority of my resolutions. I'm quite happy abt it. hehe. There was a very difficult time somewhere early-middle of this year regarding research, but God was sovereign enough to provide more-than-sufficient support thru this period, and i walked thru it, smoothly and stronger. Other than that, the rest of the year has a been a breeze. basically, it was a good year!! ^_^

New Year Resolutions 2010

1. To (continue) to read more and grow more spiritually. Hopefully my first year with my new SS class would be good! May i be a good teacher..
2. Get a paper out! c'mon.. half way through 3rd year already.. time for a paper or two! I'd better succeed in this..
3. Spend less and save more. Had spent $3k more in '09 than in '08. I attribute that to the laptop and the 'skills' i picked up. traveling wise, i travel alot as usual. hahah. Hopefully i'll spend less next year while still traveling as much (or maybe even more, since faraway America is in the list multiple times next year, if time permits)
4. And upon request... MCTH. =P (though this is not really something to make as a resolution. not too much within my control. haha)
   

So much has happened this one year. A year where i truly experienced God's amazing planning and sense of humor (in a pleasant sense). I'm so looking forward to yet another great year!!! :)

if only good things don't need to come with long waitings..

if only i had lots of money to spare...
if only there was no such thing as inflation...
if only i could manipulate time as i wish...
if only i could take yr-end leave like all other staff, stay at home and bake brownies ...
if only i had my own room...
if only everything works as i plan for them to...
if only time would stop everyday on my way back home...


so many "if only"s, but i am still blessed and joyful of what i have right now ^_^

Limited edition Christmas Swatch! ^_^

".. but i did follow.."

those words i would never forget. those words that meant so much to me. the words that i had prayed so hard for, especially the few minutes before you told me that. haven't felt a surge of happiness so strong in a long time.. having to fight back tears of joy every now and then.

so happy for you. ^_^