good horses eat the green grass everywhere!!

Just before she left, she told me.. good horses don't eat grass behind. i.e. look ahead, never turn back. But i am really hoping that she doesn't live it up. i am looking forward to the day she returns. i hope she decides to do so. i miss her so much.. so much unhappiness around since she left. directly or indirectly...

i miss the old days. not just her, but so many things accumulated. i gave up lunch time so as to complete more stuff in a given time frame. i gave up chilling out over tea so that i could do more. i stopped doing anything that would impede my progress. i stopped initiating and organizing FSC gatherings and outings. is it really too much i gave up? even my health has taken 2nd place.. it's time to rethink my priorities. i'm not going to give up my passion, but maybe i shouldn't neglect everything else so much. there has to be a balance!

if all goes as planned,

it'd be so wonderful! an exciting 2 years ahead await me. So much happening during this transition period. Uncertain, scary, yet exhilarating. I like to plan ahead, so there's alot to look forward to. So glad I am not the only one looking ahead! ^_^ so many choices, so many possibilities. nothing can be confirmed, unfortunately, but it'd be great if things go smoothly and we get what we want. The first major decision factor is very very soon. This time, i don't play a part in the determination of future paths. But, how I fare at work the next few months would be crucial. May it be the best year in the lab!

Lost.

No directions as to where to go next. It's not time yet, but most people generally know where they want to go, so they have the luxury of time to search for it. But, i don't even have a direction, how to search? too bad i am interested in too many things.. can't find a focal point to narrow down to. haiz. no direction, no focus, no future. Someone please enlighten me!!! :(

blow wind blow!

massive rearrangement of seatings. It's gonna be messy, but exciting! coz we're gonna sit together!! ^_^ not next to each other, coz it'd be distracting. but, not too far either. just a turn away. lalala. i dunno how long we can enjoy this luxury, but i'm excited nonetheless. :)

roadtrips?

It's such a wonderful thought. to be able to go back to having regular roadtrips again. I really miss those times. weekend roadtrips. exploring the place. having fun. more than a year back, when i visited yingying and eujin in UK, i saw how fun it was, to spend time together, and having the luxury of going for roadtrips as and when they felt like it. I really envied the life they led.

It may be more than a year before i graduate, but, i like to plan things in advance. I had long forgotten that I am given the option to go back overseas. away from home. be independent again. now that I am reminded of it, i am tempted. really tempted. in fact, deep down, i know i really want it. only the uncertainty of it all drags me back. staying in singapore is always the safest option. i've always chosen the safest path, forcing myself thru life sciences even though i knew i wouldn't like it. but being safe is simple. and no worries. also, will we be able to work it out beautifully?

Lots of thoughts, but no answers. so troubled by it all. and the first song we sang today, struck me right in the centre of my heart.

"...There are things about tomorrow
That I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand..."

where's my sabbath?

working every single day of the week. so tired. this is bad. God gave us the Sabbath, so that we may rest. not only do I not have a fun weekend, i have to come back to the lab everyday this week. Full day summore. stupid cells that need care every 24hours. I'm going to kill them on friday. no more to do with them for some time. and no more stupid presentations. i need my weekend. i need my rest. next week would be much better... can't wait to meet the TH peeps. :)

Giant vs Dwarfs

My mum commented tt TH's shoes very small. Until, i placed my shoe next to his. and hers too. Then... the truth was revealed. Giants vs dwarfs. hahahaha (and yes, all adidas. adidas rocks!!!)


And my mum so happened to buy eggs today. see how they look like?? Same same! Big giant dark eggs, sitting next to tiny white eggs. so cute. hehe

issit the new year already?

it doesn't feel like it. not much of a long weekend for me, it seems. going back to the lab everyday, and more importantly, very caught up with preparation for a big event. oh gosh. such a fortunate boy, birthday always coupled with new year's day, so got super long weekend. so bohua.. i need to plan whole weekend. but i'm glad we had a really enjoyable time. and so happy the cake was yummy :)

Have a blessed year ahead dude. and get your phD by 30! hehe

and you made such a looooooooooooooooong wish. curiosity makes me wonder what you were wishing for. such a long list. hehe

my brother is 20!!!

i can still remember the time i joined the '2' gang. now it's my brother's turn! how time flies. and it was a really happy occasion with the family. a nice close to the year 2009 ^_^