Light for my path

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Monday, March 29, 2010

Luncheon Meet~

Guess from our outfits and poses, what this yr's theme was? =D

And yes, it's another of my lucky years. Yet another lucky draw prize i brought home ^_^ i love DnDs

only regret is that we reached kinda late with that last bus, and i had so little time to take pictures with friends. :( when's the next DnD coming? we should do this every month instead of the beer parties. XD

Thursday, March 11, 2010

If only things would be as smooth for me too. But things just don't seem to go right any time at all. Not this, not that, not anything. People leading perfect lives should just stay away from me. Don't want to talk to you.. let me wallow in disappointments.. for only i live in a real world where things aren't perfect.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Finally got a chance to return. Fell in love with Henderson's waves since the first time i visited with the YA peeps. waited very long, til i went back again today!!! finally!! ^_^

jump shot successful at first try!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

no more fun :(

Sigh. And I thought that conference would be even more fun this year. But i probably have to travel alone. So tempted not to go. But no i wouldn't let it stop me! no more holidaying.. and I'll have to find my way myself to the conference location.. no fears! Go Go Go! :(

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

i could have avoided the 4 yr suffer..

but there was noone to advice me for that. everyone around me was just as naive, simplistic and lacked the foresight. all had adviced me to do what i thought was best too. had foregone the opportunity to really enjoy the course in university. if only i had followed my heart.. maybe i'd be in a better position now. who said the path i took was the most straight forward one? eventually, i realized, it was wrong. time and again, i try and convince myself that i do have some advantages over others who chose the other path. but i seem to be deluding myself. i could have taken what i wanted more, and end up even better off now... now it's hard to turn back.. how? quit and be a stay home mum. :(

Thursday, January 28, 2010

good horses eat the green grass everywhere!!

Just before she left, she told me.. good horses don't eat grass behind. i.e. look ahead, never turn back. But i am really hoping that she doesn't live it up. i am looking forward to the day she returns. i hope she decides to do so. i miss her so much.. so much unhappiness around since she left. directly or indirectly...

i miss the old days. not just her, but so many things accumulated. i gave up lunch time so as to complete more stuff in a given time frame. i gave up chilling out over tea so that i could do more. i stopped doing anything that would impede my progress. i stopped initiating and organizing FSC gatherings and outings. is it really too much i gave up? even my health has taken 2nd place.. it's time to rethink my priorities. i'm not going to give up my passion, but maybe i shouldn't neglect everything else so much. there has to be a balance!

Monday, January 25, 2010

if all goes as planned,

it'd be so wonderful! an exciting 2 years ahead await me. So much happening during this transition period. Uncertain, scary, yet exhilarating. I like to plan ahead, so there's alot to look forward to. So glad I am not the only one looking ahead! ^_^ so many choices, so many possibilities. nothing can be confirmed, unfortunately, but it'd be great if things go smoothly and we get what we want. The first major decision factor is very very soon. This time, i don't play a part in the determination of future paths. But, how I fare at work the next few months would be crucial. May it be the best year in the lab!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


No directions as to where to go next. It's not time yet, but most people generally know where they want to go, so they have the luxury of time to search for it. But, i don't even have a direction, how to search? too bad i am interested in too many things.. can't find a focal point to narrow down to. haiz. no direction, no focus, no future. Someone please enlighten me!!! :(